Sometimes, it’s hard


Sometimes, its hard to be a girl

Holding on to the life lessons that mommy dear showers on you

Learning to kill your wishes, early on, learning to suffocate and still breathe

Sometimes, you dream, and you hope that they will understand, and let you be free

From the bondage, the purpose of which is something you dont understand

Sometimes, its hard to be what they want you to be

An epitome of an illusion, just to feed their gigantic ego, control over your body, your thoughts and your voice

Sometimes, its hard to be a woman

Being told who to love, and how to hold that love

Proprietary, its necessary to be graceful

Self-grooming to the point of torture for the male gaze, to maintain the illusion of perfection

Yes, women breathe,they get hurt, they get hungry and fart too

Hiding behind the walls, when its “that time of the month”, when the Moon is blood red

And you are told to hide, behind your mother and the lies

Sometimes, its hard to be a woman

Giving everything you have for someone else

Living your life as if its a borrowed thing from others

Spending each day, repaying the favour

“We let you go to study…we let you follow your dreams…we were kind to you…” Until you get dizzy from disgust

Sometimes, its hard to smile and tell them its okay, that you are fine

Caring about their feelings, as if you do not really matter

Sometimes, its hard to be a mother, another word for sacrifice

Giving up everything you have for someone else’s heritage

Sacrificing your body, cutting yourself open to let another person be born after months of agony

Only to repeat the cycle of life.

Sometimes, its hard to be me, with so many resentments, so much anger

Sometimes, its just hard.

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