The situation of my life is so bad
That I cannot help being sad!
When others try to cheer me up
I smile weakly and walk away !
I dont have the strength to face them
Yet everyday I face the same monotonous moments.
They feel hurt when I dont respond
But they dont realise that I myself am torn.
Life’s obstacles have been many
and have left me a Loser !
I suffer more than it appears
drowning in my silent tears!
My perspective about life changed
Consequences were drastic
Where I used to see fresh promising earth,
I began to see dirt !
Where I used to see the clear blue sky
I began to see a mirage !
Where I used to feel the breeze caressing my hair and face
All I really feel is the savage wind binding me !
Crushing and twisting me !
I wonder what changed ?
How did I end up as I am ?
Where along the journey did I lose myself ?
These questions are unanswerable
as are my thoughts confused and intangible !