Dreams

When dreams you share get lost in time

When hope you had seems like a dying ember

New Year promises a light in the dark

Crossroads in a valley of indecision, nothing to see here but a mere charade

Fireworks, promises, resolutions, we have them all

For a day, and then the resentment sets in

Pressure of another year to make things better

Knowing that time is as fickle as the society that made it

Driving everyone into madness, a cat race where the cat doesn’t want to run.

Success is subjective, money is an illusion

The illusion buys peace, if not happiness to heart

So on the beginning of another year, from my heart, I wish you all

A far away vision, that isn’t reality

And something that will keep you calm

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No, no, don’t get me wrong

Mirror is you who shows me what I am

Worth a shot, or someone you would obviously not

Eh, its modern day poetry, the beloved is out of the picture

Its just me, my anxiety and a cup of liquor

No, no, don’t get me wrong, I am not a drunk mishap

I am just trying to make it rhyme, one word at a time

Letting go of the jitters, I hear a creek

Building my defenses, I decided to take a peek

No, no, don’t get me wrong, it was just air

Knocking on my door, for it understood my despair

Been on my own for a long time with nothing but a pen

Holding the fort since I was ten

No, no, don’t get me wrong, I was eleven

I tried to rhyme this line too, but nothing comes to mind that rings like eleven.

Now, I may go on all night long, for sleep is an enemy

But I have to stop, or you’ll make me.

Life has been hard, but it is what it is

Lets leave it at that, to figure out what the damned fuck that ‘it’ really is.

I will never say goodbye

I will never say no to you

Never hold out on you

All I ask in return is you remember me

Long after I am gone, I want to live in your memories

I will never say goodbye, never set the sun on our days in the summer

Of life in sway, of love in bloom

Never will I ever forget to tell you so

But you must not cry, or despair for I

Am just a thought away in your head

I will never say goodbye, never end the chapter called ‘You and I’

Our story is of love, one which is hard to come by

If need be, will I pause the lines and let the unspoken words be

So our ending would never come to pass

And you shall be with me at last

I will never say goodbye to you, a promise I once made in old days

When you were young and I was gay.

Yea well

I just want to say whats on my mind, what my heart feels

How I long to be heard, how I wish I had an outlet

To speak, to scream and to cry

For the lord knows how lonely I am.

Bysa Papa

You were priceless, a gem one would be lost without

A harbour to lost ships, you showed everyone the way

But now, its all haywire, its all lost

We feel lonely, like the whistling of the wind

We float adrift, along the endless ocean of life

Till death did us part, till death we shall meet again

I miss you every day, miss your council every day

Days are empty, our home feels nothing like home

You were the roof over our head, the lullaby to our sleep

Its been ages since we slept, its been ages since we saw your smiling face

Pictures tease us, remind us of a time lost to life

Past which was beautiful, a future which is sad.

Past and Present

You won’t like what you see when you see me

It won’t be what you thought it would be

Someone in the mind, an image drawn to detail

And yet when reality catches up to us, our dreams are bound to fail

You will not find me pretty, like I used to be

There are scars deep, if not on my face

But visible through the veil

Some I earned, some were gifts

But they are all mine, if you would like to count and sit

Catch up for days are gone that were good to you and I

Now its a ragged, dirty canvas

With no silhouette as pretty as what once was

However, if you would peer inside

You would find me as you left me

Not a hair out of place, not a dime touched by the unfair waters of life

But you have no time to sit and chat,

You’ll just wave and pass by, like the cruel wind

All I will get is a whiff of your presence, a reminder of our times

Our lives as we lived it, every day, and yet now

Its a parallel line scheme, one I never learned at school and one I can never erase now.

Finally Free

Can I say that I am free, no anchors, nothing

Can I say it’s me, flying next to the kite, whipping away in the air 

Can I ever really say, I am free of my dreams 

Longing, far from reality, those dreams 

Will it be wrong to say that, if ever, given the time, I would really have the freedom to be as I am 

Finally free.