Carry the load, let me carry the light
To light up your way, as you carry the load
I am here to ease the pain, to bear it with you
This thing called life, a struggle to the end
A myth, I stand, in your mind’s eye
You are alone, on the edge of the parched land
A companion you seek, only betrayal is felt
But no matter, seek again, your oasis
Its night, its dark
Carry your light as you go
I may not lead but I will always follow.
Light brown, worn with use
Teapot stood, in its majestic grace
On the bottomshelf, frequently made to pour tea
The handle, the body, the spout
All showing signs of age.
Oh and yes, it was my birthday on 18th April.
Just marking another milestone
I have come far and made myself proud.
21 years. Quite a life so far.
For them, once its begun, its never done
Always there, in their tiny hearts, the past
Throbbing like an open wound, continuous reminder
It wont be buried, it wont be forgotten
It will resurrect, it will always hit you in the face
Far from sanity, it will be a grudge against you
The dark emotions let loose
Shame! What is letting go?
No one knows.
It feels like only yesterday that I cut the cake
And now again, some same faces and some ghostly memories
Knock my door with age leading on
Its a celebration of death, it seems
But also of a chapter coming to an end
And commencement of another
A day it takes for a beginning to begin another adventure
Be it in my room or out in the world.
Like a bubble wrap, they protect you
You think you can do without, but can you?
They dont let you feel, the bubbles keep bursting and they dont stop
Each bubble, a friend.
I ran into you, just round the corner
Suprised, you were, and so was I
I wasnt sure if I should stop and say “hi!”
Was I still welcome?
Fault lies where? In my heart or yours?
I stayed, feet wont move
Why is it so difficult to take steps
Away or towards you?
Something brittle, if the air moved
Shattering the illusion
With a blink, moment passed
Illusion dissolved into memory
Like a whip, it lashes out
Cutting the air deep, the heart deeper
It doesnt bleed red, it flows like hurt from the eyes
As sharp as a Sword, like blow
Thrust so strong, the pain stronger
Crushed to the ground, mixed with the dirt.
Deed done, damage done
Of all that happened, everything undone.
Dragged, pulled, pushed, carried
Around the house, lawn, field and more
“Always together, toy and I
I love my toy. My toy loves me!”
Happy moments, shared and felt
Engraved in the tiny heart, swelling with fondness.
It breaks? Not happy. Tears. Escape.
Alone. In the corner. Fighting the urge to kick the ground.
Peace, Soul! Its a toy. It had to go.
Depend on me instead. I will lead.
It was not for ever. Bid farewell while you can.
Comes along the morning light
Creeps into the air, dense
The chill, a little too much
Shivers; holding the covering more tightly
Lest the mist creep in; take away the feeling
Kiss away the joy.
Winter is gone, new grass has grown
All green, pristine.
No trace of summer, from the year before
Faith, I hope life takes a new turn
Why is it that memories burn?
Holes, in me. Yet I stand in the summer sun
Taking in hope, holding on.
Try to pacify others, leave them behind in the race to heal
Where would I be, were it not for me?
My sleepless nights, my restless days
Call to you to ask, and pray
For escape, for peace for I cannot face
The end of the Era
I would call it golden, for rich it was indeed
I would say we Fell, and fell straight to hell
The fire breathes within me, devours me
Memories give pain, of times lost to Time.
Wishing you, with all my heart
Wherever you are, if you are, at all
Birthdays now don’t mean much, no ageing taking place
But its important to remember you, your footsteps
Always in my heart, I love you so much more than I did before.
I found this picture in one of the older albums when all was good, almost! I dont remember the exact year this picture was taken but it is very special.
I miss you today. I can still hear your voice in my head singing “Happy Birthday” with raised hands!
Those days. Your laughter. Your hugs. God knows how lonely I feel without your constant support.