Carry the load, let me carry the light 

To light up your way, as you carry the load 

I am here to ease the pain, to bear it with you 

This thing called life, a struggle to the end 

A myth, I stand, in your mind’s eye 

You are alone, on the edge of the parched land 

A companion you seek, only betrayal is felt 

But no matter, seek again, your oasis 

Its night, its dark 

Carry your light as you go 

I may not lead but I will always follow. 

What is Letting Go?

For them, once its begun, its never done

Always there, in their tiny hearts, the past

Throbbing like an open wound, continuous reminder

It wont be buried, it wont be forgotten

It will resurrect, it will always hit you in the face

Far from sanity, it will be a grudge against you

The dark emotions let loose

Shame! What is letting go?

No one knows.




It feels like only yesterday that I cut the cake 

And now again, some same faces and some ghostly memories 

Knock my door with age leading on 

Its a celebration of death, it seems 

But also of a chapter coming to an end 

And commencement of another 

A day it takes for a beginning to begin another adventure 

Be it in my room or out in the world. 

Round The Corner 

I ran into you, just round the corner 

Suprised, you were, and so was I 

I wasnt sure if I should stop and say “hi!” 

Was I still welcome? 

Fault lies where? In my heart or yours? 

I stayed, feet wont move 

Why is it so difficult to take steps

Away or towards you? 

Something brittle, if the air moved 

Shattering the illusion 

With a blink, moment passed

Illusion dissolved into memory 

Sharp Like A Sword

Like a whip, it lashes out 

Cutting the air deep, the heart deeper 

It doesnt bleed red, it flows like hurt from the eyes 

As sharp as a Sword, like blow 

Thrust so strong, the pain stronger 

Crushed to the ground, mixed with the dirt. 

Deed done, damage done

Of all that happened, everything undone. 


Dragged, pulled, pushed, carried 

Around the house, lawn, field and more 

“Always together, toy and I 

I love my toy. My toy loves me!”

Happy moments, shared and felt 

Engraved in the tiny heart, swelling with fondness. 

It breaks? Not happy. Tears. Escape. 

Alone. In the corner. Fighting the urge to kick the ground. 

Peace, Soul! Its a toy. It had to go. 

Depend on me instead. I will lead. 

It was not for ever. Bid farewell while you can. 


Comes along the morning light

Creeps into the air, dense

The chill, a little too much

Shivers; holding the covering more tightly

Lest the mist creep in; take away the feeling

Kiss away the joy.

Where Would I Be?

Winter is gone, new grass has grown

All green, pristine.

No trace of summer, from the year before

Faith, I hope life takes a new turn

Why is it that memories burn?

Holes, in me. Yet I stand in the summer sun

Taking in hope, holding on.

Try to pacify others, leave them behind in the race to heal

Where would I be, were it not for me?




To Hell

My sleepless nights, my restless days

Call to you to ask, and pray

For escape, for peace for I cannot face

The end of the Era

I would call it golden, for rich it was indeed

I would say we Fell, and fell straight to hell

The fire breathes within me, devours me

Memories give pain, of times lost to Time.



Birthday, 1st April.

Wishing you, with all my heart

Wherever you are, if you are, at all

Birthdays now don’t mean much, no ageing taking place

But its important to remember you, your footsteps

Always in my heart, I love you so much more than I did before.


I found this picture in one of the older albums when all was good, almost! I dont remember the exact year this picture was taken but it is very special.

I miss you today. I can still hear your voice in my head singing “Happy Birthday” with raised hands! :/

Those days. Your laughter. Your hugs. God knows how lonely I feel without your constant support.