Hurt, hazy and dying as I was
for which no one knew the cause.
I never let them see me like this !
Didnt want to expose myself.
I felt I could’nt endure their pity
knew they meant well
but it would only put me through hell!
I know myself well enough to agree
that I have the courage
to pull through unscathed from outside
but weak enough to rip me apart from inside!
How I hate this feeling of desperation
how I long for some peace of mind.
People think I am happy
but they dont see my vulnerability !
I cry out loud again and again
but people only see the smiling face
and my pleas for release go to waste!
Its a good thing they dont realize what’s going on
and will leave me alone !
Sighs come as naturally as breathing !
Every day and every week
I am forced to live a pretense!
My only way to show my frustration !
Dont know where my life is heading
wherever it is, I believe there is yet loads to unwind
as my fate was never known to be kind !