A life is a practical joke
a joke which can never be understood.
Such deadly tricks which make us choke!
When we feel that we know how to live
life pulls us down
and forces us to start again.
My life is nothing better
When I felt that I knew where I was heading
life became helter skelter.
Throwing everything out of balance
Don’t bother to ask me how I feel
I am all ashes and dust from inside
I wish to cut out my heart
as it hurt so bad
I wished to shout and rip out my throat
as the fury inside me cannot be tamed!
I wished to slay whatever came in my path
showing no mercy for my wrath !
A revenge at myself.
But I eventually learned restrain !
Learned patience the hard way.
Left everything behind
every wish, every joy, every word!
I looked at the rubble of my life
closing my eyes,
I promised to build it anew
I had forgotten how to live
but life taught me over again !
What it like to feel
What it felt like to believe!
I am learning to live again
working my way to becoming sane …………………………..