Funny. My mood swings. Active all the time. I dont know what to say.
Since I cannot sleep, I would like to use my blog to express what I feel. I feel … Happy/sad. Reminds me of a song :

Something in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself, makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms. Theres something in your voice makes my heart beat fast. Hope this feeling lasts rest of my life. If you knew how happy you are making me and how long I’ve waited for your touch!!
It feels like home to me, feels like home to me, feels like I’m all the way back where I come from.

I like this song. A lot !
I dont know why I typed it. I just did. ūüôā
The world is at my feet tonight and I feel on top of it.
The love there is, the feel of nature
So close, so near to me
Purer than white, lovelier than life
Family love and life together we live
Forever together, always!

Smooth Patches Along The Rough Road

Honestly speaking, I love a handful of people who are in my life. They make me feel better. Sanna and Madeeha, thanks chaddi buddies for being there.
Madee, I am sorry I attacked you with water but you were feeling very hot and this was the least I could do. ūüėČ
I love you more for that chips you got for me. Thank you!
Thanks for dropping by and making me feel that I am not alone after all. Being with you, I can.laugh at my troubles like they are pebbles. You made it easier. Thanks. And I promise I will be there for you, always. I wont run away because of my insecurities. Never.
Thanks for making my day. Thank you.
Loads of Love

Its Just You

In the end, its just you
The world will say, they are with you
Your family will say they are there for you
Your friends will pledge never to leave your side
Your love will promise to always hold you
Yet at the time of need, you will be with you
No one by your side,
No one to watch your back
In the end, its just you
In the end, you will be brave
You will be your own hero, you’ll be your own savior.
You will find your solution, you will find your way
As you are your own kin, you are your own
No one is with you, you are alone

My Happy Place 2

I once saw a dream, a dream I wish could come true. I was there where we all want to be. A place of pure divinity. A world of my wishes. A place where I could smile without being conscious.

That place was something in itself. I could feel my inner peace which had long since been forgotten. The grass was greener than the green. The sky was an awesome shade of blue and so serene. The birds were flying up in the sky without the fear of being shot. The animals were running wild after being caged for so long. The flowers bloomed to their fullest, shone with the brightest of color. The eye pleasing rivers flowed pure, without impurity or dirt. I could see the edges being smoothened by the running water. There was no bridge over it, thats what made it all the more fresh. The fishes in it, ah! They were so happy for no one was there to fish them. I was the only one there to enjoy the world of peace. I could smile without being watched from the corner of the eye. I could dance without  being laughed at. I could just be me for there was no one to comment. I want it more than anything and I know no such place exists.

My Happy Place


I have a wish. I wish which I wish from the depths of my heart. A wish which we all wish at some point in our lives. My wish is to live a life away from others. A place of solitude, of sanctity. A place which belonged to me alone where I could appreciate the nature of who I am and what surrounds me. A place where there are open grounds covered with grass greener than the green and wide seas with clear blue water stretching out to the horizon forever. The flowers with their colors so bright that one might fall in love with them. I would love to touch the flowers but never pick them! I would love to see the birds take flight and fly with such grace which would put many to shame. Then my eyes would turn to the sky. The sky reflecting the pure blue with an intensity that makes the eyes blink again and again. The sun with its shiny body, warming the world with its golden glow, high up in the sky. I would lay on the green grass facing the sky, letting the sunlight warm me up from head to toe, driving away the chills that have taken a permanent place in my heart and soul. The river would be flowing by my side and I would enjoy the gushing sound of the pure water. it would soothe my nerves which were on the edge for God knows how long. Then would come the night when the stars would show me various constellations so that I may enjoy the night sky. The black canopy decorated by the stars. Ah! that would be a sight to behold. To sleep beneath the wonderful world, a world where I would be all alone, no one to fear and no one to hide from. I would be just me, in my most simplest form. I would laugh without hesitation. I would smile my most genuine smile, just because I want to and not because I dont want people to know I am sad. There would be no one to talk to, no malicious people around, no conspiracy. Just me!

That is my wish which I want to be true. Dont you?

What I was

I was a soap bubble, all smooth and soft 

Transparent on either side, the air holding me aloft 

I was into myself, the world was me 

I held no one, no one held me

I was open and I was free,

I was as vast and as deep as the open sea

I was the bright blue sky, I was the true blue 

I had it in me, the shine and glitter, all true.


I was that green garden where flowers held mass 

Singing lullabies, a dance gathering

I was the tree in that garden, I was a flower 

I was all the green grass blades and I was the wild bush

I was the bee, chasing you 

I was the foliage, shading you 


But now that I lost what I was 

You gave me an escape

You let me out through the back door

You saved me from the destruction which was in store

The blue sky, the green grass

The mighty sun, the shiny stars 

 No one is mine, for all is lost 

I am lost and out the back door 

Away from everything, off to find another shore.

My Black Sails

Sailing through the calm waters
My white sails high up in the sky
Wading through the open sea, blue laid out to conquer, to defeat
I, with all my strength and all my will, set forth into the vastness
With a mind set to conquer to blue waters with its depths
The white sails all magnificent, all majestic
Reflecting against the bright sun, the light, the scattered clouds!
Journey began, trouble began
Got wary, the ship set low
All the chambers and the deck
Spread the gloom, of loneliness
I prayed and I hoped and I believed
That I will have my touch of destiny
But the sand was filling fast and I was lost
Looking up, the black clouds crowded around
Making my sails black!
They were black and they were dead
Dead to me, dead to my orders
My ship sinking, my heart throbbing
The weight of failure, a burden to carry.