I Cant Turn Back

One step ahead of me, you stand
Carrying what I wish, what I want
I cant take that step
Its too hard
To raise my foot, to stamp it
To put it forward, move towards you
You take more steps, farther away now
I stand, looking helpless
For I can never hope to catch up
I stand still, the weight on my heart
I wave at you to stop, to wait for me
Yet you move on, not looking at me
I burn inside, I want you here
I plead, I beg but you go on.

Turning around, I walk away
Towards the other end, away from you
Nothing will pull me around
I wont call me back
I am on a course to save my fragile heart
I cant turn back now
I retrace my steps
I take my words back
I pushed all memories aside
As I move on forward
You wont see me as I wont see you again
Never will I do this, never will I forget
Never will I let you rule me, never will I submit

Somehow Seen

Somehow she managed to smile, to look peaceful on the outside when there was a war inside.

Somehow she made everyone’s day while hers had been marked dead, made them smile while it had been ages since she had smiled herself.

Somehow she pulled herself together when she was broken to pieces just to save others from falling apart, to make them strong, to help them hold on.

Somehow she lived each day with people who would never miss her other than the time when they needed her.

Somehow she still  lived with the truth that people only took advantage of her patience and perseverance. She still managed not to appear hurt and smile throughout.

Somehow the person who smiled and smiled, didnt feel the tears leaking from her eyes. No one saw those tears.

No one.

But me.

When I saw her tears, I fell to my knees.

Her tears were pure, they were real

She was hurt and in pain

No one saw her, no one knew her

They all claimed to be her friend but she was alone and no one realised that

Pity on her. Shame on them

When I saw her tears, my heart broke.

My pain was so sharp but it was a fraction of her pain which touched me

I died a little inside knowing her struggles, her hurdles

The sorrows she beared, the pains she took

The walk she walked, the talks she talked!

I couldnt see her this way and I turned away

Leaving her with the black shadows

Somehow she managed to live in them

Somehow she managed to remain unseen

To stay hidden

Change Your Thinking!

Dear People Of Srinagar,
This is my message to all of you. I am very disgusted at your thinking, perspective and  outlook. I am sorry to say that your minds have taken a shortcut and are soooooooo narrow that even narrowness cannot define the intensity of the narrowness and shallowness of your minds. Let me give you a reality check : you are all a gossip. You people gossip and  backbite behind your own friends which is vety disgusting and insulting. You people walk around, head held high, and say that you have modernised. Physically? Yes. Mentally? No!!
Mentally, you all have degraded to such extent that I have no words to describe how much. I feel at a loss for words to describe your shallow minds.
As its said :

Brilliant people discuss ideas
Ordinary minds discuss events
And shallow minds discuss people.

I hate to say this about my own people but you have got to improve. If you see a girl talking to a boy, why do you immediately jump to the conclusion that she’s his girlfriend? I mean do you really not trust the girls at all? He could be her brother or cousin. Or just a friend. Why do you make your own opinions, spreads rumors and make the life of the girl a living hell?
I mean why? Why do you talk and discuss other people? Why cant you stick to your own business? Why do you pester the girl? If she just wants to be friends, why do you label her as a girlfriend? Why? Why?!?!?
I am disappointed at the way things are in srinagar. This kind of behaviour hurts everyone. Everyone.
Care about other people’s feelings too. Remember that they will get hurt if you talk about them and spread rumors. Dont make yourselves such people whom no one can trust. Dont do that. It will all come back to you. One day.
Please!!! Leave everyone alone!!!

Shifa Naseer

Reduced To Nothing

Time made me realise, the scars will never fade away. They wont let me forget. They wont let me swallow the pain. The world is cruel. It is hostile. It is shameless. I am disappointed.

Is this it then?
After he was gone, is this what my life is going to be?
Why should I feel this way?
He left me, I didnt!
So why do I suffer
Why do I feel in exile
Is this what my life has reduced to?
A life of pain, of sorrow and no gain
Pity I dont get a say
Oh I would’ve loved to ask for justice
But I am helpless
Save me please!
Take me out, release me!
Let me live my life
Free of agony and filled with joy
Do I see a ray of hope?
Honestly I dont but I want to
Reduced to nothing
My life is a pain
My heart is hoping and in strain
Not one cell in me is content or happy
All I wish is to see light
I am willing to fight
But it is sad to say
That nothingness is eating me away

Posted from Shifa Naseer’s Phone