Days go by

Seems like yesterday and yet it feels like ages ago

When things were somewhat in my favour

When it was not so bleak, there was hope to meet

Wait was fruitful, or so it seemed

Now, days go by, in hopeless agony

Nothing is ever going to be the same, a part of me is cutting away

Lost to sea, lost to life

Something, someone inside me has died

Days go by, and it feels like eternity that I hope to consume in seconds


Relieve me

Relieve me of the bonds that tug at my heart

Let go of all the weight that held the balance

Cut away the strings, push away the memories

Relieve me of this burden that I carry

Let me breathe for I feel there is an ocean in me

Relieve me.

Nobody can take my photo

Nobody knows how to do it, what will make me look good in a frame

Nobody can take my photo, a photo I will actually like

I smile and I smile and I smile some more

And still it seems I am frowning to the deepest levels of Hell

No one knows the angles of my face but me, no one knows which ones to point at when they click

I have many photos, but none that I like, none which make me smile

For I see for what they really are, not one I would want for my obituary

A sad, lonely girl, or a woman, I do not know

All photos say the same, none can make me feel warm

Nobody knows how I look good in a frame

So I do not have good photos of me, to show you that I am pretty too.

Can’t say goodbye

Locked in your heart, some silly, stupid reason

You say you want to drift apart, for my mind, its something close to treason

Buried deep is the will to find me in the dark, regret switching off the light, losing the way to me

Locked inside your heart, is the will to find me

You tell me you have to go, but you can’t say goodbye

Like a meteor, your trail blazes bright

In the dark, where I am all alone, and you are too

In your own corner, locked away is the reason you have to go

But for some reason, you just can’t say goodbye

Walk away, show your back, and turn a blind eye

Darkness is deafening, as you hear me screaming, muffled sounds which don’t reach you

For locked away inside your heart, is the will to find me

You say you have to go, but you can’t say goodbye.

What can I say

As if the entire journey meant little, as if the weight of the moment was nothing at all

It came, it blew, it crossed over to the past

Branded as a memory, forever etched into my mind, a scar

What can I say when you ask me why I do what I do

Why do I do it? I wish I knew

I only know that I cannot stop

If only I could, but my direction is downhill

Going faster, if anything, spiralling

To death? Hah, life is not so kind

Banished to live life, a half life

Sentenced to years of pain, a little heartache

What can I say, I have no more left in me to hold

An open gate, I let every bit of me, wash away.

Not worth the pain

Shut the door, do it now, for I am afraid of what lurks outside

Or is it inside? It is a door, a door I once used to adore

It was a way to love, a way to hold you close

Now, it hurts, even to look at it, makes me squint

Dear friend, I have to say farewell, for it is not worth the pain

That I linger, here where countless memories were made

Spun into beautiful dreams, doors of opportunities

Now, behind those doors lies the pain and the sorrow

The distance that pulls me away from you

Its cruel, but maybe its fate. I don’t know but I have to go

For it’s not worth the pain, to linger on to what is lost.

Forgotten love letter

A forgotten love letter

As old as time, as poor as a worthless penny

I am your forgotten love letter
With faded ink and tattered pages

I am the forgotten soul of once blooming care
The lost words from a loving heart

A ghost of your past, thrust aside for a new chapter
Called the second phase of life.