Simple


Today, let us be honest, not hide behind excuses, no explanations

It was a decision, well thought, to hang it all, to let the love go

Was it even love? A thought ever did cross your mind, as you started aligning your thoughts, letting the past slide through your fingers, something weighing down on you.

Maybe you got hurt too, I imagine. Maybe you cry in your sleep too. Maybe, just maybe, you think about calling back or replying to “Will you talk to me?”

My side of the story is simple.

I am in pain

I am in so much pain that I cannot speak

I am in so much pain that I feel my chest will explode and I will die and I do not die

I breathe, and it hurts in my throat because there is a lump there and it hurts 24*7 because I do not stop breathing

It seems I am exaggerating it. But I wish I was

I am in so much pain because of what happened and how it happened and why it happened

And it is gone, I am in pain because I do not want it to end

I am in pain because because I am not worth the effort

I am in pain. And no I am not alright

I want to suffocate myself so the pain which feels like a pulse behind an open wound would stop.

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