16th May, 2014.


Today is a very sad day. Four years ago, on 16th May, 2010 at 10:45 pm to be exact, my father died. It was a heart stopping moment, something which happened in slow motion. It was like going into shock. It felt as if my whole existence was a lie now that dad was no more in existence. Once a person dies, everything about that person starts fading away. People mourn for a day or two but its the family which carries the burden of the loss. I carry that loss. Its been four years and it still feels like yesterday when they were taking him away. It still feels the same way every time I remember about dad.

It was any other rainy day for everyone who didnt know my dad. But for me, it was a glimpse of hell. My screams still echo in my ears. I screamed to drown the cries of others who were mourning for my father. As if they knew what I was feeling. As if anyone could ever know that they not only took the body of my father but also a part of my soul.

Dad was different. I am like him in so many ways. It makes me proud and it hurts me too. I dont really say it but I miss him every day. I feel more alone with each day passing. I miss dad a lot.

I wont write any poetry for him this year. He’s gone. My life is a consequence of his death.

I am experiencing mixed feelings today. This weekend is my sister’s wedding and its my dad’s death anniversary too. I am happy and sad too. I dont know what to feel so I will just cry a little and go to bed.

 

10 thoughts on “16th May, 2014.

  1. There is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. -Winnie the Pooh

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