Where I see my end, I see your beginning.
You keep searching yet you never see
You never see the odds against the veils
Yet I stand and give you direction
You do not see me
You dont give me another thought
I walk with you despite your choice
When I know I can break free
You hold me down and cage me
Laughter bubbles out from me at the irony of life
You refuse to let go while I cant wait to break free
To let go of all the burdens I carry for you
And to set sail out in the open sea
Time may pass or it may fly
You had me, took me for granted
Now I am gone, but you cant carry on
I laugh and laugh and laugh.
Till eyes are filled with tears
For you and for me
For what couldve been and what could never be
Somewhere there will be a light which will give me peace
I have found my release
That is my end, That is your beginning.
Beginning of a new struggle.
Without me, alone you got to walk.
Till your will breaks, the strings of your soul vibrates!
Now I may be talking abstract but plain words can never describe
What I hold inside
How I built for years and how you blew it all away
It took you seconds to destroy everything.
It took me eternity to fix each bit.
The scars, the cracks remain
No matter how hard I try.
I feel failure leaking through
Poisoning me, leaving a bitter taste in my mouth
As I spit and gag to let go of all that
I feel bound and nauseaus
Yet I laugh and Laugh and Laugh.


5 thoughts on “Abstract

  1. Beautiful. Purely beautiful. And a tad sad. Just as every other poem on your blog. I have read about 25-30 of them since the last 4 hours, and every second of this time was more well-utilised then much of my life this year. They’re so profound, so moving. Itna dard hai aapki saari poems mein. Intense grief. I’m having one of those moments where you want to cry, just, the tears don’t come out. I absolutely love your work, Shifa. And you. And how you carry on, stand high, smile, despite all the tragedies you have had to endure. You are a wonderful person, Shifa. (I’ve seen you in college often, and will surely come up to you and meet you someday!)

    PS, this one is about your friend with the same initials as you, isn’t it? (Didn’t feel right to say her name)

    1. I had meant to write this at 4am, but I dozed off while writing the comment 😛

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