No matter how hard you try to be bold, be strong but if you fear something, you always are afraid of it. No matter how much you convince yourself, it is always there lurking behind your mind, ready to pounce on you at the first opportunity. It is really out of ones control to stop fearing something, particularly childhood fears. They never go away.
In my case, I am afraid even terrified of cats. They scare the wits out of me. I am terribly afraid of them. I have had many encounters in my childhood which have lead me to develop a phobia for cats. Many people find them adorable but I find them menacing and cruel. Cats are cruel when they want to be.
My fear of cats is genuine but people around me mock me (not that I care really) and make fun of me. But it doesn’t bother me as I know how I feel and that I am not doing it for attention. I am afraid and that is it!
Why are people not ready to face the truth when it is in their faces. Instead they feel more comfortable with the lie, easier for them to believe. Easier for them to stomach it. *snort*.
The fear actually stops my heart for a moment, then I catch my breath for another moment. It takes a while to gather my senses and then I scream, scream for all I am worth. 😦
Nobody takes me seriously. They think I am acting childish. Sigh, if only they knew. It has nothing to do with the cats, its those incidents which burn a hole in my memory and it is so painful. I am afraid of anything and everything that can think for itself, cats in particular!
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